Asylummn

Let me take that back and say, that i'm probably just a bit over dramatic, and i wish this ativan would kick in.
yeah that would be kool.
not even going to bother typing in a dumb way.

I want to enjoy myself,
pretty badly.
Let myself go in ways i haven't before,

or maybe i just need to ride a few horses,
i think that is what i'll do,
start riding Herbie,
my mind is not a peace with out a horse,
so that's what i'm going to do,
that and i really need to focus and write, and practice this speech for usu state contests,
and pay rent,
and register for my classes at dixie,
and i need to get another job,
or i need to move back in with my parents and ride horses,
so that way i don't have to worry about rent.
having your own appartment is cool and
 all,
but its lonely as shit here,
and drinking is not even that great,
at least compared to smoking some green.
Thanks.


it's just something that i'll have to deal with,
deal with life,
pull my hair out,
my goodness why an i so anxious?
why has this been put into my brain and body?