Asylummn

I'm going too ask myself some questions,

and maybe i'll come up with some answers.

First off,

Why do you do what I do?

Why don't i feel satisfied with any job i complete?

Why can i not do my best?

Why do i still ride?

why do i still live?

where does this drive find its root in my body?

why was i born with the desire too ride horses?

I'm fairly certain, its because doing my best would be pointless without trial and error

maybe it would perhaps be worthless,

that all of these spider webs would mean nothing.

I guess sometimes i have too look back,

and see how far I've come from the time i first set foot in a stirrup.

From the time i first loped that old nag.

Step back and look at the direction that I've pushed, striven, cried, debated, and craved.

See, i learned today that people are attracted to what they have natural ability in. I concur with this. Maybe i need too set my goal somewhere else though. Keep my focus on a different light in the arena. No more, time concentration, competition worries, or judged opinion. Its just going too be me and my horse. We are going too do OUR BEST as a team. Because we are two souls, two aura's. There is no better feeling in the world, when we are both on the same page. So I've been told if i take care of this, then everything else will take care of itself.